Shit is about to get real! ❤
My name is Brittany and I am the mommy behind Mommy Life Elevated. I am 38 years old, I am a full-time working mother of 4 beautiful, crazy little weirdos.
Like most people in life I too have lived through my fair share of trauma. I was born on a hot summer morning to two teenage parents. My home wasn’t the happiest of homes, I mean I had two teenage parents that grew up in the 70’s. Needless to say my home was no stranger to drugs, alcohol and lots of verbal and physical abuse. My father was a very hard working man, I do not remember a time in my life when my father wasn’t working. My mother couldn’t really seem to keep a job and stayed home with my brother and I.
My parents were both physically and verbally abusive with eachother. My father would get drunk and sometimes high and you would see the light in his eyes turn into darkness and rage. My mother suffers from a few mental illnesses, bipolar disorder being one of them. My father was abusive to my mother but my father was never ever abusive towards my brother and I, my mother on the other hand was. My mother was mostly abusive towards me. She would push my head under water for long periods of time, put pillows over my face or piles of clothes, in an attempt to suffocate me. She held scissors to my neck threatening to stab me. These types of things carried on until I was big enough and brave enough to defend myself.
My parents divorced when I was 13 years old and I was pretty much on my own after that. I started seeing my first boyfriend at 13. He was my best friend and we were pretty much attached at the hip. At the time my boyfriend had a friend that was abusive towards his girlfriends and if I ever saw him be abusive or hear about it, it would trigger something inside of me. I didn’t realize it at the time but these experiences were leading me to my highest self and my healing gifts.
My first boyfriend and I dated for 4 1/2 years. I broke up with him because I was growing and changing and I didn’t want to settle down. After we broke up I went a little wild. I started going to clubs, experimenting with girls and becoming a bit of an alcoholic. To me I was living, I was having fun. A few months after the breakup, I ran into an old friend and we exchanged numbers. We quickly started dating and he would end up being my first abusive relationship. Thus begining my pattern of addiction and abusive relationships. My second boyfriend and I dated off and on for 2 1/2 years. After him and I broke up, I again went pretty wild. I played the field, dated a lot of different types of men. During this time is when I would meet my now ex husband. He would be my second abusive relationship.
Through each of these abusive relationship, I would meet someone that would lead me to my healing gifts and teach me how to connect to spirit and how to use my gifts to help others. These women would eventually become my spiritual team. (I will cover this in a later blog)
I don’t give a shit what you call it, God, Jesus, Spirit, Source, Source Energy, the Universe. As long as you are connecting to it every single day. I call it spirit because I am connecting to my true self, which is my spiritual self. A Course In Miracles teaches you that “you are not in the universe. You are the universe. An intrinsic part of it. Ultimately you are not a person, but a focal point where the universe is becoming conscious of itself.” What an amazing miracle! I truly believe that we are spiritual beings here to have a human experience and that we should be experiencing miracles every day. We are here to give, to love, to be the love, to show compassion to one another no matter our beliefs. Yes there will be trauma, sadness, pain, darkness, depression. We are put here to experience these human experiences, whether they are joyful or sad. So that we can learn from our trauma, dig deep and really figure out where our fears, self doubt and judgment come from and change our thoughts and connect with our most elevated self. My hope is to inspire you! Empower you! Help you learn to fall in love you! To give to yourself first by connecting to your inner power, your spirit, your inner goddess, whatever you want to call it.
Let’s get Elevated!